Unwanted Miracles

Salam Alaik people , Salut people of earth <3

Hai... lama kan nadia tak update dah? ready for my story now.... This is my last day at home before I'm going back to school....Trial hari tu ... Ya Allah....teruk...I've tried my best...mungkin bkn rezeki saya kan....banyak kali saya moral up tpi bnyk lagi saya moral down.. can i change this?  22 days left........ for SPM , school life and much more.......

I'm literally growing up so fast....I'm turning 17 now....Isn't that a shocker... I've thought I was a 12 year old little girl that just entered high school last year.... Sometimes, I feel like running and no turning back ..... i just wanna leave this chaos in my mind... But I know i have to be strong, matured and independent to handle this... I have found something funny and adorable in these past months....but that I will tell you after I finish my SPM okay? Now i need to get my head in game... Take care guys , I Love you :)

Hidden past over again

Hey and Assalamualaikum readers.. bonsoir , comment allez-vous?

It's the last night for Ramadhan. I don't want Ramadhan to end....*cries. It comes and goes every year..and will we have another Ramadhan next year ? Wallahu'alam..

Hidden in a trance where you can only follow the vicious path called "Life" is one tough road. I can only establish a few in so little time . A hidden past can only remain hidden if it's untold. Before I write more , I may say this is a random entry where I can just express my troubled mind so if you're still intrested in reading, you may proceed :)

Yesterday , I was at the coast simply enjoying the breezy wind that's passing..I realised that sometimes in life.. you need to be determine and firm about your decisions that is good for you... you need to think wisely and decide because eventhough you like it or not , you're gonna be out there alone .You have to be dependable and strong. To hope is something common but to have faith in something that is impossible that is extra ordinary . Humans they tend to acknowledge things at first notice.

Please, to all people that are living. Appreciate people around you. Just make them smile once they'll cherish it so much . Don't you feel bizzare.. when someone cares for you so damn much even though you didn't do anything to them? That's called Love . It's not all "happily ever after" for all people . Those moments when everything just falls into place , well that's bullshit for me now . If you want something , you alone have to take the risk if there's obstacles in the way ..then it's your choice to back off or move on.

I know where I stand . I know i'm not admirable nor beautiful. I'm not intellegent and I have no talent. I'm just yet a simple young lady that is finding the true meaning of life . I'm not the girl who's is a shopaholic or those chicks  who are frenzied with fashion  high heels . I really prefer sneakers and I prefer simple attire than stylish , this excludes grand events okay.. Yes, I am abnormal and freaky and I'm limited . Guess that a bonus for my future husband in 8 years time . Lol. Simplicity is just too beautiful to me. But , I am easily emotional and yet really childish in a way. But only a few knows how my mind is really like. Don't ever judge a book by the cover people.

Well, It's 1.30 a.m in the morning , and I'm going back to my hometown in Johor Bahru tomorrow evening. I'm gonna miss Sabah so much. I really want Syafiqah Rusdin to hug me right now though, miss her so much.

Till then , Au revoir ~ !

A Letter to Read ♥

Assalamualaikum and a stupendous Sunday morning to all fellow earthlings :)

That was quite an intro for someone that has abandon writing for a while . Today is 13th July 2013 and I'm writing again . SPM is arond the corner and I'm getting so dang nervous . Additional  Mathematics is still far from my sight but I'm gonna grab and conquer it with power  . My elective subjects need some more polishing and my others needs to mantain and upgrade .

To Syafiqah Rusdin , 
Thanks for tweaking my blog , It's pretty and awesome right now like you . hehehe. Let's study together , i'll keep reminding you about SPM okay ? muahahahah *evil laugh . I know I'm evil,vain and  cute :) Hahahhaha , remind you of someone ? okay okay. I'm sorry. So, bestfriend ... let's strive for success and cherish the memories we can be together . I love you .

Okay, back to my entry..so how's are you all doing ? I'm great here :) Just like normal teenagers , struggling with everything and trying  to breathe in this materialistic dark world. Have you ever thougt about what will happen in the future ? .... I have . I'm kinda scared on how I would face this word alone with knowledge that i have gained during the past 17 years of my life .To enter a new world ....needs a whole lot of hard - core courage...

Hahaha , masa balik bermalam ni ramai pulak kawan - kawan tegur , yg dari Terengganu , Perak , Kl....rindu budak prs ni ke ? hahaha...Yela, I miss you guys too so much...Ingat tak last year kita iftar sama - sama ? It was the first time aku ifta dengan kawan - kawan . And now , we have gone our separate ways ..but I'm glad that we still aren't forgetting each other. And ada juga parents kawan yang teringat kt nadia masa puasa ni , terharu :')  .. Hahaha

So now to all 2013's SPM Candidates ,

We all are going to face a big examination in a couple of months . Take care of your relationships with your teachers, friends and family . Devote yourself to your god , when you're praying...cleanse your heart and be sincere in what you're doing . Forgive others before you sleep , it's better this way . Don't hurt others . Please mind your words..because everything you say is a "dua" . Minimise or even better stop cursing . Study Hard and Smart , push yourself to the limit if you really want to achieve success .Blocked your mind from other unimportant things . Remember , Prioritise and Act . Find your weakness and conquer it . Gain your confidence , Cherish the memories . Hold on to the ones who make your life better and pray for the best :)

In 4 months .... we'll walk out with pride and intregrity , you know why ? because we have did our best . For that to happen , we have to act now . It's not too late to do the right thing you know . Everybody has a chance in changing for the better . I . myself to need to change for the better , Taking baby steps that will lead to the big ones . Don't forget to pray for others :)

عَنْ أُمِّ الدَّرْدَاءِ قَالَتْ: إِنَّ النَّبِيَّ صَلَّى اللهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ كَانَ يَقُولُ: ” دَعْوَةُ الْمَرْءِ الْمُسْلِمِ لِأَخِيهِ بِظَهْرِ الْغَيْبِ مُسْتَجَابَةٌ، عِنْدَ رَأْسِهِ مَلَكٌ مُوَكَّلٌ كُلَّمَا دَعَا لِأَخِيهِ بِخَيْرٍ، قَالَ الْمَلَكُ الْمُوَكَّلُ بِهِ: آمِينَ وَلَكَ بِمِثْلٍ “

Dari Ummu Darda’ dan Abu Darda’ Radhiyallahu ‘anhuma bahwasanya Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam bersabda, “Doa seorang muslim untuk saudaranya (muslim lainnya) yang tidak berada di hadapannya akan dikabulkan oleh Allah. Di atas kepala orang muslim yang berdoa tersebut terdapat seorang malaikat yang ditugasi menjaganya. Setiap kali orang muslim itu mendoakan kebaikan bagi saudaranya, niscaya malaikat yang menjaganya berkata, “Amin (semoga Allah mengabulkan) dan bagimu hal yang serupa.” (HR. Muslim no. 2733, Abu Daud no. 1534, Ibnu Majah no.  2895

That's all for today . Assalamualaikum . Till we meet again :)

Empty spaces

Assalamualaikum and good morning sleepy readers ~

Woke up on a major headache this morning, Ugh....head hurts  ,difficulty in breathing in , throat's parched and I have  quite a fever . Not in a good state of health you might say....

Have you ever experienced a situation when you wake up in the morning with a blank and drizzled mind and someone you don't remember or you never knew explained everything to you ? And i don't know why.... why my heart raised a beat just by listening to his voice.....I just don't know why......the more vivid evidence that i read makes my head spin more... Did we have anything special between us ? But we just met a few weeks ago, This is just too fast.

This is impossible , just plain impossible..... How can I fall in love with a total stranger ? This is wrong , I don't know anything about him ....My head is revolving in a memory lane that i'm not sure of . I don't know if he's lying or playing with me ..... I just don't know.... my mind is in a mess ...... I'm trying to believe and remember..but I just can't right now ...I just can't....

In easy terms , I'll just say this ... "I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS HAPPENING NOW" please , someone just explain.......... everything...

Reality

Salam Alaik and bonjour people :)

how have you all  been ? It's the holidays and yeah for sure you'd all feel free to your heart's content . I bet some of my friends are still enjoying the dream land on this beautiful morning . am I right ? That's normal for a teenager. hahaha . 

Do you ever get the feeling where you just want to runaway to a place and do anything that you wanted to do ? A day would be enough for me if I had the chance . I noticed that I have long gone abandoned my wishlist of things that  I wanted to do or achieve in my life , Since some time , i've been thinking to make another wishlist again but it's a risk of leaving myself unprotected . The desire to "expect" anything in life is a risk , everytime you're hoping too much on something or someone , you'd have those mixed emotions in you . And when you got hit or knocked cause you hope too much believe me , nobody I repeat ... nobody wants to feel that dumbfounded hurt feeling that makes you break inside . 

Hahahaha , but well that's life , accept it or leave it .
Don't have the mood . Write more later .
Assalamualaikum .

Sincerely , The end .

             Today as I woke up from a shimmering sunlight on my face and realized that I had slept on the sofa with my beloved cousin . I walked slowly to my room  step by step , consuming everything that has happened to me for the past month . Various feelings occupied my heart as one by one of the events passed through my mind , everything that has happened has given me a lesson to remember for life . I know none of us wanted this to happen , we were just having fun in our lives and then we got hit by reality . My fingers ironically types a song called " To Build A home " at the youtube search box . The melody of this orchestra song didn't filled my ears but my heart . It gives a sense of relaxation to me to enter my own world of hopes and dreams . A place where I can imagine anything that I desire and what not . It's kind of weird that how much you have been hurt , you will  still feel how your heart just drops and crashes into pieces . With everything normal that's happening in the house , the noises of brothers fighting , sounds of cuzzies chatter and giggle and there's me in my world .
 I calmed my feelings down and did everything normally , I'm a strong young lady and I know where I stand .   It is ridiculous to sulk and be unhappy all day along just because you bumped into a small bump in your life . I know I am going to get hard time in my life . But this time i have my friends to support me . I love you all . That's all for now . Assalamualaikum :]

Cloudy Days

Assalamualaikum and a very good morning earthlings :) 

Today is the 21st April 2013 . I was very happy yesterday , my friends were all around me and we laughed . we cried , we smiled together . It was the best day this year for me , where I can scream and have fun like a little 5 year old girl . Where you don't care who looks at you , what they think about you and etc . It was a valuable memory that I'll keep for the rest of my lives . Thanks to Abby , Piqa , Lala , Bebet , Amy , Fifi , Shanti and Kamal and others  for cheering me up . I Love you all so much :)

I know what is happening right now is for my own good and it is the best for me . I know it is . I'm not mad .  I am just hurt . Well , we can't stop feelings right ? we have to endure and accept .I will be okay in a few days  . I remember talking to someone if we ended up like this , it would change me in different ways :) hehehe . Don't worry la , the change is too a good way . So . here I am smiling and at the same time the feeling of  regret overpowers me . 

I will focus on my studies after this . No phone , No movies , No laptops and such . This is for my future and   I want to be successful . I have too be strong in any condition I am . Even when I feel weak and helpless , I still have to fight it . I don't know what will happen in the future . I just know that i have to act now .  Whenever i feel sad and hopeless , I have to remember that He is testing me in many ways and He just wants us to be closer to him , He guides us :) 

You there , i know you're reading this , stalking me silently :p haha .

Take care okay? Eat well , you're getting thinner everytime we meet , be neat always . Man up dude .Be safe always and don't forget to eat your medicine okay ? I can handle myself alone . Don't worry :)

I'll miss you loads okay and last of all . I Love you ...

The Unexpected

Salam Alaik and good morning earthlings !

Heartless . Feelingless . Regretful and many more . This year is the most challenging year that i have ever experienced in my whole life . A lot of problems i faced . a lot of obstacles and a lot of new things that I got to explore . I am  grateful that Allah has given me a beautiful life for the past 16 years and I am still grateful now . There are a lot of personalities in the world , various types of person and a even wider range of attitude . Now , I simply want to acknowledge anything and everything that has been hurting me . I just wanna be in my world . Where all goodness and peace lay there without any disturbance , I am sick of being underestimated , push around , being insulted and lots more . It's hard to please everyone you know .

You have never live my life , never experienced what i went through , Note this .you have NEVER been in my shoes . Sometimes i just want to unleash my bad side and give you what you deserve , but i know that will come to no good . That will just be a play to you and you will never learned . Everyone has their own story  and everyone has their good and bad side . I may not be perfect and I may not be as "perfect" as you but I am me . And that is my specialty . I may be seen as weak and fragile but inside I'm strong .

It is a very big and memorable year for me and i'm not going to let a little , tiny , discrete problem to drag me down . I wanna enjoy my last year in high school , act crazy , have fun and most of all to succeed in life . Thanks for adding another lesson to my life , and that is not to be involved with a mentally crazy  person like you . I'm not dumb as you thought I would be . I know everything that's happening and I am aware that this would effect me .

But eventhough i'm hurting physically and emotionally . I am never ever giving up , i'm gonna be strong and face this like every hardship that I did before , the good way . There is no use fighting , getting at each other's throat and ending up with nothing  . It's useless . I feel way better after typing this out . I have my two  adorable bestfriends . Abby and Piqa to help me and support me . They have my back and I love them loads <3 /

I hate you but then I feel sorry at the same time . Assure me , when we are old and dying , we will think back of it and say .. how stupid  and immature I was back then . hahaha , well as a human being , I forgive you after everything you've made me gone through , and I pray for your happiness and I really  hope that you my dear will change yourself for the better for your future .

Crushed hopes and dreams

Assalamualaikum , hey .... *fake smile

I'm now doing some research for the symposium...time is limited and I am in a very messy self . Packed schedules , upcoming exams , night classes , weekends programs , buliding stress , unsolve problems and rough times . Everything is in one time , I assure you ...a person who can cope with all of this has  strong mentality and physical . I , on the other hand is a weak and unconfident girl that is still dreaming in the land of fairytales and haven't realize that my biggest examination is coming in a few months . I am still in the midst where children thought that the most pain is where when you fall and scratched your knee. Alas , I was truly wrong ..the pain of heartbreaks , dissapointments and expectations hurts way beyond compare than getting a little wound on your knee . I appreciate when people advise me and say " Nadia , sabar eh ? korbankan untuk tahun ni je ...just this year ..." Do you think I don't sacrifice this year ? I spent every minute and every second timed , my activities every day packed and the strength to go on ..EVERY DAY ..... actually I am tired of people keep saying those words .. Is it wrong , just to praise and appreciate what have I did and stuggled to do ? IS THAT SO HARD ? All people do is push , push and PUSHH ! Don't you know how hard I tried to maintain everything ? but all you see is me sulking and getting emotional for only because i'm stressed and sick  . Well , here is a word from me . I AM TIRED of working my best to get good results , increase my confidence , etc but none of you are praising or even say "Yeah , you have the skill , that's why the chose you"... or say ... "Wow , you are one hard - working girl ". How can I increase my self in academics or cocuriculum if nobody really gives me real support and not only hurting advices . Let me tell you , everyday when I walk up those stairs till the 3rd floor , I feel like my legs are going to fall apart .. Every afternoon I try to keep awake and sleep at 12 every night and wake up at 4 every morning . I know I am not the most active girl or the prettiest or one of the intellegent girls but at least i have the initiative to try to be one . That's is all . Goodbye ..

-Nadia Amira -

Sincerely me :)

Assalamualaikum w.b.t . hey there peeps :)
 now it is 3.48 p.m ,  pkul 5 dah nak balik asrama .... hmmm .. biasanya time - time mcm ni agak semangat nak balik ..but this time truly i don't want to go back ... I miss my family , friends so much :')

hehehe . well , dear beloved friends ... we are going to leave the world of school , that we had so much memories together , the laughter , the fun and the cries .. you gotta be lying that you won't miss all of that right ? Truthfully , I miss my friends in Johor sooo much :) It has been quite awhile since i met or even called you guys </3  ingat lagi masa first time jejak sekolah tu , semua dgn muka blurr , skema masing - masing ... and now look ... kita semua dah form 5 . Penghujung dunia sekolah menengah ...lepas ni mesti semua dah pergi haluan masing - masing kan ? I hope you guys all the best :)

Some words from Nadia Amira Binti Mohamed Nasir to you guys :

- Friends from Johor -

Korang , kita dah jnji kn nak straight A+ sama - sama ? :) Make sure korang dapat tau ! Aku nak tengok nnti :p hahahha , Study smart , sacrifice everything for just this year okay ? Jangan melawan cakap cikgu ! Jaga diri baik - baik . Jaga kesihatan . And to my cute juniors and adik - adik  , study betul - betul and nikmatilah detik- detik persekolahan selagi korang boleh . Chiayokkk ! I Love you guys ! haha . Btw , nadia dah makin tinggi okay :p nnti aku smpai johor terkejut korang ! hehehe . That's all . Best Of Luck SPM 2013 :)

- Friends from Sabah -

Ehem ehem . hey ... first off all :)  nadia nak ckp thanks sbb jadi kawan nadia in a short period of time . Korang bnyk bantu nadia , seriously , thnks :) . Batch 0913 , jom score SPM ramai - ramai :) heee , Semua  A+ InsyaAllah ...Amim . Study smart , jaga diri & kesihatan . That's all for now . Love you guys :)


okay , that's all for now . Nak kene bersiap . Going back tu hostel . Au revoire :)

 Sincerely
Nadia Amira <3

A new hobby :)

Assalamualaikum w.b.t :)
hey there ! Nadia Amira here , heeee , budak asrama yg baru balik ? :) yeahhh , that's me !

The title, "A new Hobby .  Nadia Amira has officially has a new hobby and that is writing .

Write about anything you want and anything you feel . you could express everything in words plus you could improve your english too . I start to intrest in writing when i read a Chicken Soup book , you should read one of these . There are the best ! It can make you scream , cry and smile of happiness by just sentences . It touches your heart directly and deeply. With words you can make a person more highly spirited and more motivated . You can practically do anything with words , you just need to write with your heart and express what you feel . I write honestly and so my words are true . I am just an ordinary girl that writes to express her inner emotions . is that wrong ? I like to write it out this way than writing in a diary . Its safer and helps me a lot as i am not myself for these couple of days ,  So would you like to read my entries that i have made manually during my days in boarding school  ? 

If you want , then wait patiently for my next entry okay ? 
 Be safe and stay cute .
Will be writing very soon !